Saturday, July 09, 2005
friends?
i wonder why. i'm about to cry when i'm blogging this.
i'm not sad, i dunno. feelings mixed.
issit that easy to give up 1 great friendship?
i tasted it so many times tat i'm sick of it.
to tell the truth, i've never dare to trust 100% when anyone says we'll be frens for long.
and it came true.
i know i have my flaws and mistakes. i wun deny any of them.
u just got to tell me, i'll accept it and try to change.
sound so weak and lousy, yet, tat's how people grow isn't it?
i'm kinda disappointed.
all the hopes and dreams of how we're gonna meet up in the future as who we are gonna be. yeah. just gone.
i'm surprised how one thing can change one person so fast.
i'm amazed how words can kill relationship.
i'm shocked how people can remember what others promised and forget wad he promised himself.
i'm sorry for all tat i've done wrong.
i hope van is reading this blog.
remember how we used to shop when we're in sec 1 and 2? we bought almost all the same things?
remember how much more popular u are compared to me?
remember how jh sided u and jiang sided me?
remember how we 4 talked at playground?
remember how people will misunderstand when we show them the neoprint of the 4 of us?
remember how we manage to get to know bl they all and had a great hoo-ha out of that?
remember how we turned away from one another?
remember how it hurt to lose 1 best fren?
remember how we were there for one another when we lost our guy?
remember how we lost jh and yj?
remember how we reconciled?
remember how we formed a wonderful gang?
remember how we manage to find back the great frenship and frankness we had after reconciling?
remember how u go gaga over zaid when toking to me?
remember how i consulted u when i had probs wif pl and jo?
remember how we were so sure that we wun fall for the same guy?
remember how we had our mooncake festival?
remember how glad we were when we found this frenship back?
remember how we really talk and share with one another bout each of our life?
remember how we compromise to one another?
remember how we find each other for movies all the time?
remember how we tried to stick close and think of ways to gather?
remember how far we dream about each other in the future?
remember how u 3 came my house and we talked and killed ray with our words?
remember how we offered our time for one another?
remember how we encouraged each other to study hard and chiong?
remember how we studied together that night?
remember how we regretted over many frenships that came past us?
remember how great we felt sharing all the past together?
remember how we went thru our sec sch lives with one another?
remember how we know each other so well, we don't need to explain and we'll know?
remember remember?
wad i said was from my heart. i tot u could take it. i was risking our frenship for an understanding. but i failed. i din regret. u noe me. i hope u wun too. u have regretted once, i dun hope it will happen again. only u yourself know the answer. we'll grieved over this loss, we know that things will no longer be the same. but u so sure? after all all all that we've went thru? this is the end? no one thinks that u're the mean one. no one! but indeed, u did change! i mean change is constant always. everyone in the gang cares. u may think they're standing at my side. but there's so many things that we've done for one another, including u and me. the same amount! u think they wun bother bout wad u feel? u're wrong van. we love u as a fren. u noe it. think about it.
yeah. i'm trying to salvage this frenship. though u said dun bother to, and u might not read my blog animore. you r still my fren in my heart. your blog will still be read and felt. u may do anithing to cut off this tie. yet, i promise, i wun do anithing to compromise to this cutting. i'll still view your friendster profile. your blogs. your photo album. to know that u're alright.
u know how much it hurts to do this.
u r not that strong. u can despise me for trying to predict u. yet i still know tat, u're not that strong.
words that are true from fatty
10:18 AM
